I Write Fanfiction (and I’m not ashamed of if) – Part One

My a03.org account.
My a03.org account.

I write a ton of fanfiction. I’ve probably written more fanfiction than I have of anything else. I’ve been writing fanfiction since I was 15. I will always write fanfiction. I am not ashamed of any of this.

And I shouldn’t be.

My reasons for writing fanfiction are my own, yes, but I will lay them out of you anyway, cause I’m awesome like that. I read an interesting blog on Worship The Fandom, about how the #askELJAMES twitter fiasco showed that people still think of fanfiction as inferior, rubbish, not real writing or literature, and so on and so. You know what I say to that?


Have you tried writing fanfiction? It’s actually harder than you might think to be a good fanfic writer. Fanfic writing is the same as any writing. It’s really easy to be a bad writer, regardless of the genre or even the medium. It’s hard to be good at fanfiction. The rewards (comments, reviews, kudos) are instantaneous, but so are the criticisms and flames. And the hardest bit about writing fanfic is writing characters that aren’t your own. Take it from someone who’s done both.

It’s easier perhaps, to write your own character convincingly, because you know that character, you created it and you know how they will react because you decide how they will react, you have decided every facet of their character from whether they like to cheese on their burgers to how they will get if the cat decides to steal the cheese after their wife forgets to put it back in the fridge after dinner the night before (this may have happened last night but isn’t related).

To write a good fanfiction – or hell average fanfiction – you need to try and figure out how to write a character who is not your own. You have to try and figure out what a character would do or say, given the background information of the film, book or TV show you’re borrowing them from. You have to try and figure out how they would react to their cat stealing their block of cheese. Just because your hot and cool air force colonel would totally brush it off does not mean Samantha Carter from SG-1 would (though, she probably would be more interested in where the hell the cat came from cause she gave hers away to an alien in Season one).

I think she'd be cool with the whole cat stealing the cheese thing.
I think she’d be cool with the whole cat stealing the cheese thing.

Dialogue is tricky too cause you can decide how your character talks and pick an accent and speech pattern from the start and run with it. But everything about the character has already been decided for you and you have to work with that. Anything else is out of character and frankly a bit shit.

Fanfiction can be a difficult as any other sort of writing because of these restraints already put on you as a writer. What makes it a bit easier is that the world building is already done for you, the characters are already created, so you have a bit of a leg up. All you need to do is write what ever you want to write and write the characters properly.

Like any aspect of writing, fanfiction is under your control. You can decide to take it seriously, put work into it, write over 100,000 words with perfect grammar or 500 words of sex with typos and bad spelling. Or visa versa. Original work is not perfect and is not immune to typos, bad spelling and grammar issues. Original published work comes with editing though, and editors weed out the problems like that and weed out the issues with plot and characters and world building. That’s what they’re there for but that doesn’t mean authors are infallible it just means they get their work corrected before it gets read.

That’s the big difference between fanfiction and original published work. That line of editing. Most fanfiction isn’t edited or beta read. The ones that are are done by friends, online and offline, who do it as a favour, or cause they want to.

The mail online is less bad journalism and more right wing news porn...
The mail online is less bad journalism and more right wing news porn. But my mum says the gardening section is brilliant.

Bad writing is the same regardless of the genre and medium. If you don’t put any effort in, you shouldn’t get anything out of it, but with everything in life that isn’t strictly true. Such as bad journalism is read and watched by people who don’t realise it’s bad journalism,  bad fanfiction is read by people who don’t always realise it’s badly written. I always skip the badly written stuff, no matter how hot it promises to be because I can’t read it. I know what good writing it – I have read enough news, books and fanfiction over the years to recognise it. I have been taught to recognise it too. In school, at home…I’m lucky like that.

But like the bad journalism, and the awful books you hate, like Twilight and 50 Shades of Grey, people will read it and enjoy it and nothing will dissuade them from. Even if it’s badly written and an advocate of abusive relationships. That’s okay though, we have a tendency to group together with like minded people (in my case people who write fanfiction well and rally against 50 Shades for reasons that have nothing to do with it being crap fanfiction in disguise).

Yes, there are a lot of problems with EL James work that actually have nothing to do with it being fanfiction and everything to do with it being badly written. That should be the focus, not the genre or form of the work. And hopefully, most people see it that way and the people that think themselves above fanfic writers, because they write ‘real’ fiction are few and far between and actually sad people. I believe in freedom of choice. Anyone who derides your choice to read or write fanfcition is encroaching on your freedoms. I am happy for you to read 50 Shades of Grey. I’m not going to stop you. I just want you to be aware of a few things too.

Years of typing up fanfiction has done wonders to my typing speed if nothing else.
Years of typing up fanfiction has done wonders to my typing speed if nothing else.

In this, we come out the bigger people, we the many, the geeky, the fanfic writers. We come out the better people. We don’t delude ourselves in thinking we are better than anyone. Mostly we just want to write our favourite characters doing stuff the TV shows won’t show us. Usually LGBT relationships and sex.

Fanfiction has it’s problems, I’m not denying that – though a lot of those problems are within the individual fandoms and are pandemic to pretty much every facet of life – that problem being people are jerks. A lot of these problems can be found within any medium, within any community of fans. Within any group of people. People are jerks. Not all of them, but enough of them.

Fanfiction is not the same are original work, no, and it’s probably not going to make you any money. Hell, if you are trying to make money, writing is not the way to go about it – ask any writer. Ask any poet. But I think, if you’re writing to make money, you’re writing for the wrong reasons.

It’s up to you though.

Next time I’ll talk about why I write fanfiction, why I read it, and why that will never change.

Coming Off My Medication: Tegretol

"VariousPills" by MorgueFile
“VariousPills” by MorgueFile

So I decided last week to come off my medication.

And I don’t mean – screw it, I’ll stop taking it – I mean coming off it slowly, bit by bit because I don’t need it any more.

At least I don’t think I need it any more.

First I’m stopping the Tegretol – going down from 800mg to 600mg for a month.

I’ve been taking Tegretol for at least eight years.  I can’t quite remember when, and I don’t have any documentation for that point. And by documentation I mean a blog post or something on my livejournal stating when I started. And the electronic records my doctor had access to during my appointment didn’t go back that far. But it’s at least eight years. 2007 is the first mention of it.


I started Tegretol because I couldn’t deal with my anger. I didn’t necessarily have mood swings but I couldn’t control nor deal with my anger. It was a big part of the reason why I self harmed. I got angry, I didn’t know how to deal with it, I cut myself. And therapy wasn’t coming but medication was easy so, I got more meds on top of my Seroxat and well, it just became part of the the routine.

I don’t know if it worked.

I really couldn’t say for sure. It didn’t make a big enough difference to stop me self harming, but then, by time I’d been self harming for that long it was as much about the depression and self-loathing as it was about the anger. So maybe it helped the anger, I can’t really remember. But that didn’t really make a difference overall because I still tried to kill myself a couple of times after starting it, and in the end therapy was what really made the difference, changing my life entirely.

But I’ve never stopped taking my medication. It took so long to accept the fact that I had to take it, and longer to accept that I might have to take it for the rest of my life. And now I’m at this point where several things have occurred.

One. I am not the person I was when I started taking my medication. I’ve completely changed my life and my way of thinking, as well as my way of dealing with my depression and anxiety. That has been pretty clear over the past few years, but the last month really showed me that – it’s been tough, with my wife being off work and still ill after the accident, and money being tight and a few other stresses my depression and anxiety has been pretty bad this month. I even thought about self harming.

I didn’t though and I went to work and managed and the month has passed and things will hopefully be better next month. I am able to deal with the crap that comes my way now.

Two. In the future, if I want to have a baby myself (carry it myself) then I can’t be taking this much medication. In terms of Tegretol my dose is pretty normal as a mood stabilisers but I’m maxed out on my Seroxat and it would not be good to be pregnant and on that much medication.

Three. Working for a pharmacy has been a bit of an eye-opener. Especially when it comes to to sheer amount of medication wasted and the amount of money that is being wasted by people getting free prescriptions for things like paracetamol that costs 25p for 16 tablets, but took up ten to fifteen minutes of a doctors time that they didn’t need, as well as the money it cost to pay for the paracetamol and all the delivery costs and so on. So taking medication I do not necessarily need because I’ve been taking it so long and because I know the withdrawals suck (at least from the Seroxat), just seems like a waste of money month after month. I’m costing the NHS almost thirty quid a month in those tablets alone – not counting the money spent on the receptionist sorting the prescription out, the doctor signing, the delivery costs to the pharmacy…

So, I decided, I made my appointment to see my GP.

He actually said to cut it in half but I’m scared. It’s been a long time and I don’t want things to wrong. And it’s winter and what if I actually need the Tegretol?? So I have a box of 200mg, to go with a fresh box of 400mg and I’m cutting down.

Starting tonight.

Wish me luck.

Watch The World Burn

Week six prompt
Week six prompt

The city burned easier than anyone expected.

One the farm on the very edge of the outskirts, Andrew climbed out of the skylight in his room, clambering up the tiles to sit next to the chimney, feeling the lingering warmth from the families fire through the brick. From his vantage point he could see for miles.

From his vantage point he could see the smoke and flames from the city.

Not clearly, he couldn’t see the people screaming, the cars crashing but it was enough. He could see the flames licking the edges of the sky, the smoke filling the clouds, the moon becoming grey and dusty.

It was the end the television was saying and he could hear the shouting and panic from his parent’s television set as they watched the chaos inside the house. Andrew didn’t really understand what was going on – his little sister had gone back to sleep, his older brother was watching with his parents.

His mother was crying.

Andrew didn’t feel well.

It was bubbling up inside him, the tightness in his chest and the shaking inside his stomach. Moving up and spreading through him, over his skin and into his bones. He wouldn’t cry, but he was struggling to breathe as the feeling started to squeeze him. He grasped the chimney breast as the flames spread over the city.

He had friends in the city, his school was probably already ashes. His cousins, his grandmother…

Where were they? Had his uncle gotten to home in time – dinner hadn’t been too long, they had all gone to bed on time. Headlights were everywhere, shining in all directions on the edges of the built up city. People escaping, getting out.

The window opened again and Christopher climbed out, throwing a blanket out first. He sat next to Andrew, pulling the blanket around him, before sitting down next to him. He was so much taller, the boy noticed, Andrew had never felt so short. And even when Christopher reminded him he was five years older and only a foot taller, he didn’t feel much better.

“I don’t understand what’s happening,” he whispered. “Why is the city on fire?”

“They dropped bombs,” he sad, “Nuclear on the capital, but normal bombs on the cities.”


“Not sure. Capans? Lucan. Iris.”

They were all names to Andrew, things he’d heard about in passing on the television, in bits of conversation between various adults. He didn’t push for further explanation though, he didn’t think it would his fear.

“Are we going to die?” he asked.

Christopher put an arm around him, pulling him close.

“Nah,” he said, “we’ll be okay.”

“Sure?” Andrew asked.

“Yeah,” Christopher smiled at him but Andrew could tell it was forced. He could always tell when they were just trying to make him feel better. “Don’t stay out here too long,” he said, “Promise?”

Andrew nodded, smiling weakly back at his brother. The older boy patted him on the back before getting back up to climb through the window. Andrew turned his gaze back on the burning city, curling up deeper in the thick blanket. He would stay for a little longer, if only to see if the flames ever went out.


Week six, only vaguely related to the others – I see it as an prologue – Perhaps Etta’s great grandfather.

52 Weeks of Fiction // My WDC portfolio

Poem: Broken Little Bluebell

Bluebells at Turnerhall Growing by the steps down to the River Dee.
Bluebells at Turnerhall Growing by the steps down to the River Dee.
Tick tock tick
broken little bluebell
lying at the
bottom of the stairwell.

Stems are cracked
and leaves are torn
broken little bluebell
oh the bruises you adorn.

Time passes slowly
not to be found
broken little bluebell
don’t make a sound.

Plucked from existence
and dropped into the den
broken little bluebell
pick yourself up again.

Steal yourself for more
repeats around the clock
broken little bluebell
tock tick tock.


Kara and Etta: Time To Fly

Week 5 prompt - by Sabine Mondestin.
Week 5 prompt – by Sabine Mondestin.


Etta nodded, grinning at her from her seat on the floor. She flipped open the book resting in her lap, settling her crossed legs closer to her body. Kara grumbled something and sat down opposite her, pushing aside one of Etta’s books, and her own shoes. She mirrored Etta’s position and waited for her to say something.

“Are you sure?” she asked, when her friend didn’t continue to say any more.


Etta flipped through the book, finding the marked page.

“Remember the tail?” Kara said.

Etta laughed.

“I still say it suited you, but don’t worry Kar, this is a spell meant for other people. It’s been modified from the original and tested and approved and stuff.”


“By the council of magi.”

Etta lifted the book up and flashed the cover at her. Kara caught the word ‘approved‘ but nothing else, just a blur of cover. She grinned again, and waved her hands around, laughing when Kara squeezed her eyes shut.

“I’m not ready yet!” she cried and Etta laughed.

“Neither am I!” she said, pulling Kara’s hand into hers. “I won’t hurt you Kara, trust me.”

She squeezed her hand and smiled, softer this time.

“If you want I can do the spell on me first. It’s almost exactly the same.”


“A couple of words are different. There’s a couple of extra words.”

“Just a few words,” Kara said.


Etta pressed down the pages of the book – the pages were still bright white, but the corner well creased, as were many pothers. To Kara it looked like her friend had marked almost every other page or so. Perhaps she had.

“Fine, let’s do it.”

Etta squealed, clapping and Kara smiled.

“Don’t make me regret this,” she said with a chuckle.

“I promise, it’ll be fine,” she said, “nothing like the tail.”

“Will I be able to fly?”

Etta paused, looking over her book, finger on the page as she traced over the words.

“Not at first. Takes practice.”

“Have you given yourself wings before?” she asked.

“Yeah. They weren’t very big though,” she shrugged. “Got bigger the second time. It’s a work in progress.” She looked back up from the book at Kara. “Any more questions?”

“Are you sure about this?”

“Yes. Are you? I mean, you don’t have to,” Etta said voice lower this time. “I mean, I know you wanted to help but really if you don’t want to.”

Kara smiled.

“I want to help,” she said, smiling. “And who else are you going to practice on? Your mum and dad? Mooch?”

Both women looked across the room at the black and white cat curled up on the arm chair. With her head tucked into her body, he was perfectly circular – it was quite impressive for a cat his size. Kara reached over to pet, Mooch giving a confused mew but not moving. They both laughed.

“Can you imagine giving that cat wings?”

“They would have to be really big if he want to get any lift,” Etta said, “and he still wouldn’t catch anything.”

Kara chuckled.

“So that means I’ll have need big wings too,” she said.

“Shut up, you’re barely even podgy,” Etta said, “Now, sit still and let me do this spell.”

Kara grumbled but did as her friend asked, sitting perfectly still, back straight, legs crossed. She could feel pins and needles starting in her left foot, but ignored it, letting it spread and Etta started to mutter quietly to herself. Kara watched her, sucking in a harsh breath. She was tempted to close her eyes, could feel her lips drooping but forced herself to watch her friend, watch every movement of her lips. She couldn’t catch any words, just the hiss of an s here and there.

She felt a tingling start at the base of her skull, dull at first working it’s way down her spine until it was hot and bright. She gasped, falling forward and half expected Etta to stop but she didn’t, not even when Kara cried out as she felt pushing at her shoulder blades.

Pushing out.

Pushing hard.

She went to scream but it stopped, the pressure subsided and she was able to sit up straight. Her back felt heavy, and she almost toppled backwards. Etta had stopped mumbling and was looking up again, smiling at her. Kara wasn’t sure what to do, but turned her head to see two bright white wings behind her.

“Oh my…”

“It worked!” Etta cried. “They’re awesome. Next time I’ll have to try a colour.”

“These are amazing,” Kara said scrambling to her feet. She shrugged her shoulders struggling a little to do so now. “Wow.”

“They definitely suit you.”

“More than the tail?”

“Yeah, though, with the tail it would be awesome.”

Kara frowned at her but Etta continued to smile.

“How long will they stay?” she asked, shrugging again, trying to get used to the weight. She reached behind her to tug at the bottom feathers. They were velvet as she ran her fingers over them before pulling them around her. “I mean…they’re beautiful.”

“Try and flap them.”

She was trying, unfortunately and managed to shrug once more but couldn’t do more than that.


“Maybe I can’t. I mean, I’m not a mage.”

“It takes time,” Etta said, flipping through a few more pages in her book. This spell is only for non-mages, it’s made for you. You will be able to fly eventually.”

“This is so much better than the tail,” Kara said with a another exaggerated shrug.

“When we both learn to use them we can go out flying together.”

“I’d like that.”

“First I need wings too.”

“Can you perform spells on yourself?” Kara asked, fingers still fiddling with the tips of her wings. “I thought it wasn’t allowed.”

“Not yet, not ’til I finish college,” Etta said, with a frown and folded arms.

“Then you better get studying. So we can both have wings,” she said with a smile.

“Fine, let me get rid of the wings and we’ll try another spell.”

Kara looked up at her, then pulled her wings around her body once more, covering her body with the soft white feathers.

“Maybe I can keep them? For a little while longer?”

Etta smiled.


Kara beamed and dropped back down on the floor opposite Etta, wings fanning back out once more, a bright white circle around her. She shrugged again, feeling the wings move for the frst time, almost jumping back to her feet with a cry.

“See, you’re getting it already.”

She nodded, gleeful.

“Try something else, let’s see what else you can do.”

Etta laughed at that, and turned to a new chapter in book.



Week five. A little late. Long week. Image owned by Sabine Mondestin

I Won’t Be Watching Your Death

From [Link]
From [Link] – The victims of the filmed Virginia shooting last week.
Right now on Facebook, news websites and well, the internet as a whole, several disturbing things are going around. Nothing unusual I suppose; the internet is full of horrible stuff. People are horrible. But with facebook, and autoplay on websites, we’re being exposed to the horrors of reality more often and more easily than ever.

I’m talking about the video of the recently filmed shooting in Virginia (no video) and the images of the dead children lying in the surf (no link for obvious reasons).

Not that we should be avoiding it, or ignoring it, but the way we expose ourselves to the horrors of reality are no longer under our control. We are being forced to look at things we are already aware of. We are aware of these things without seeing them. Without watching the videos, seeing the images.

I can read news, I know what is happening. I have seen pictures and watched news that does not involve me seeing dead children and the last moment of a person’s life.

The Sun newspaper the day about the shooting.
The Sun newspaper the day about the shooting.

Let me just clarify something: I do believe in free speech. I believe that the media has the right to post pictures and videos of these tragedies. Whether they are right to do it is another matter and a debate for another day. My problem is whether we get a choice. These are not pictures for the front page. These newspapers are sitting no shelves all over the world in easy access. We should have the choice to buy them and turn the page to see the pictures, or to skip over them entirely. It is not a video to be on auto-play on websites. We should be able to read the story without having to watch it unfold before we can hit the pause button. These are not pictures for you to share on facebook. We should have the choice to find out about the deaths of these poor children without being forced to see them before we are ready. If we are ever ready.

The media, people in general, have the freedom to print and post these pictures and videos. I should have the choice to avoid them if I want. That choice is taken away from me if the photos are on my facebook feed, the front page of every nearly newspaper I encounter in my local shop. If the video starts playing as soon as a website loads.

Yes, I can keep scrolling through my facebook feed, turn away from the newspaper stand, pause the video but the damage has already been done.

I haven’t watched the Virginia TV shooting, but I did see the pictures of the drowned children. It took a little while to process what I was seeing before I scrolled down, kept scrolling and now they’ve disappeared into the bowels of my facebook feed hopefully never to be seen again.

Aylan Kurdi - the little boy who's all over the news right now.
Aylan Kurdi – the little boy who’s all over the news right now.

A fundamental part of our souls are affected by everything we see.  A part of me will never be the same again. It’s the same for everything thing I am exposed to, good or bad – sometimes for the better sometimes for the worse. It chips away at the very core of our being and there is only so much we can take as human beings – with the consciousness we have, before it’s too much. Some people have a harder constitution than others, some people can take more of a beating, more chips at the soul than others. We should at least get the choice to choose what we let affect us, because who’s to say that wasn’t going to be the last straw for me.

Who has seen those pictures and said enough? Done something foolish, irrational, life-changing. Something terrible.

There will only be so much as a society we can take too. Bit by bit we come closer to breaking point and it scares me. We expose ourselves to so much horror already without having more forced upon ourselves. The world is both horrible and wonderful, but every day it’s a fight for the balance to shift one way or another. How long before everything wonderful falls away and we’re only left we the last moments of a woman’s life recorded for all to see, and the bodies of the next generation already rotting in the sea.

Weekly Fiction: Over and Over

Kara had dreamt of the little girl before. Always running away, running away from her, hair as dark as her own, skin as pale. She often wondered if she was just dreaming of herself. The hair was certainly the same, past her shoulders and a little out of control. Even the way it swished and swayed in the wind was the same. Her hair was still like that sometimes. In the dream the little girl was running away from her, sometimes in the city, sometimes through the forest path. Little feet crunching over gravel and kicking little stones up as she went.

She carried a lantern that was always lit, the sun shined but the little flame flickered all the while.

She never turned around, never turned to look at Kara. She just kept going towards a bright red door at the end of the path, light spilling out from the gaps beneath the door bright even in the daylight.

The girl never reached the door.

Never reached the door.


Always running, skip, skip, run, skip.

Kara never questioned it. Was just an observer to this all. She woke and forgot about it until the next time.

Now it seemed to go on forever. Running and running. Just watching the little girl in the red polka dots. Skirts swinging back and forth, back and forth, over and over. She never reached the door and the forest floor never changing under her little feet even as the gravel path was kicked aside under the white soles of her shoes.

It never ended.

Never ended.



She woke up covered in sweat again, eyes barely opening but mind coming back. Every muscle weighed too much, pulling at the tendons, the joints when she tried. She could wiggle her toes, her fingers, her eyebrows – but nothing else. She couldn’t scream, couldn’t speak, couldn’t call out for help.

No one came.

No one turned on a light, opened the curtains, lifted the thick quilt from her sweltering body.

No one came.

No one.


Week Four of the 52 Week Fiction Image Blog Contest. 

Prompt is here.  Portfolio is here.

Poem: Space

She is counterpoint to my supernova,Supernova_Companion_Star
I am a brilliant point of light
burnt out before my time
and she is the only thing
I am holding onto
as I blaze through existence.
She is my solar system.
briefly I outshine her
mere moments pass
but she is my gravity and harmony
and I deny her nothing.
She leads and I follow,
through every hindrance
as through every asteroid field
were made of pebbles
to be pushed aside as we sail on
and I suffer less as she carries me forward
through stardust and nebulas
home and back again, a galaxy of wonder
under our countenance
two little gems in the middle of
this superficial extent.



On The Edge

winter Etta sank down into the white fluff, crushing it beneath her feet. She pulled her other foot up almost throwing it forward back into the snow, sinking and crushing again and repeated the process over and over as the small group made it’s way towards the edge of the forest. Some of the more experienced mages knew a spell that meant they could walk on the snow without half their legs disappearing into the cold drifts of white. She envied them, her boots went up to her knees, the thick leather water-proof but the snow went just over them soaking her trousers. She was using a good deal of her aura on a spell warming her body – she didn’t have enough physical energy to really keep herself dry as well as warm. The hike was hard work and she had to put everything she had into keeping up with some of the stronger mages as they hit the deeper snow.

The morning sun was filtered through the trees but made no difference, Etta’s warming spell was doing well enough, soon they would be out again and beyond that – who knew? Micah had an idea, this temple was close, he could feel the energy he kept saying and they all believed him.

All of them wanted to be in them, each of them had their own reasons, their own desperations.

She tried to move faster but as the were reaching the end of the trees the snow was getting deeper. She could feel it higher up on her legs, every step was getting hard she was getting slower. Even Ephraim was getting away from her now – the boy was barely taller than she, and spindly, but way ahead of her now. Etta was flagging.


She looked up from where her feet were stuck in a particularly deep drift to see Micah frowning at her.

“You okay?”

There was a halo of light around him, and she blinked as it flashed in her eyes.

“Wow you’re pretty,” she muttered and he chuckled, he reached a hand out and she felt a tingle at the touch, coursing up through her veins, the spell spreading through her. She felt her body dry from the inside, slow but steady.

“Better?” he asked.

“It won’t last,” she said, trying to take a step forwards, wrapping her fingers around his. She felt his aura again, colder this time – sharper too, and Etta suddenly felt light, lighter and lighter, rising up and then she was on level with Micah and his smiling face, cheeks red from the cold and lips almost as blue as his eyes.

“There we go.”

She looked down at her feet on top of the snow now and smiled.

“Thank you, but you can’t keep both of these spells up,” she told him, “you can’t keep us both above the snow.”

“It’s fine,” he said, finally dropping letting go of her hand, and she unwrapped her fingers around his. “The temple is close, I promise.”

She nodded, and they started back towards the edge of the forest once more. Etta moved a little faster now she was gliding over the snow, not even leaving treads behind. Micah walked beside her now, the two of them catching up with the rest of the group.

“Why are you here?” he asked, words hisses on the cold air. “Why make this journey with me?”

“Why believe in you?” she asked.

He nodded.

“My friend is sick, I, I don’t know… no one knows how to heal her and so this is one of the few options I have left.”

“The fountain,” he said.

“If the temple is real then the fountain must be there too.”

“What if..” he hesitated.

“What if it doesn’t work?” she finished. “I don’t know.”

Micah took her hand in his, warm through their thick gloves and held it tight. She smiled at him again and tried to move a little faster through the snow with him.

“We’ll get there Etta,” he muttered, “we’ll get there.”

She nodded but pressed on harder, there was still a chance this wouldn’t work.


Week Three of 52 Weeks of Fiction

Dangerous Tale

This week's prompt - by Ramdlon
This week’s prompt – by Ramdlon

“Are you sure about this?” Kara whispered, ducking down behind a shelf as another guard walked by. Etta looked over at her from her seat on the stone floor shivering a little in the harsh breeze.

Looking back on this she was going to laugh. Laugh and brush it off as another adventure Etta had dragged her head-first into.

“It’s fine,” Etta murmured watching the guard tap his fingers along a shelf as he passed by, before heading out of the room. Her friend jumped to her feet, knocking Kara back until she lost her balance completely. She scrambled back up again in time to grab Etta’s wrist as she went to conjure up some magic.

“Didn’t you see the signs?” she hissed, relaxing her grip when Etta winced. “Sorry.”

“Yeah, but…” she paused. “you think that means no magic.”

“I think we shouldn’t be in here.”

“Look, this was your idea,” Etta said, starting to scour the library’s shelves, running her fingers slowly over the spines of the books, tracking a line through the dust as she did so. Kara grumbled as she trailed behind her, eyes darting around the darkness.

“Should’ve brought a torch,” she said. She could barely see Etta in front her, the odd spot of light pushing through the dirty windows.

“I am a torch.”

There was a spark, then a flash, and Etta turned around and grinned at her. A small ball of light floated on the edge of her fingers and lit up her bronze skin. It reflected off Kara’s own paler skin and she had to shield her eyes from it when her friend waved it in front of her face.

“Etta!” she hissed again. “Careful.”

“All right, all right.”

Etta turned back around, flicking her hand up in the air throwing the light. It settled above their heads illuminating the space around them enough for Kara to at least see her friend. And the titles of the books on the shelves.

“Kara, these are all…cooking books, recipes.”

“Magical recipes,” Etta said, taking down a book and flipping through it.

“Yes, but not what we’re looking for.”

“I don’t know, I kinda want to know what aura brownies taste like.” She showed the page to Kara who scanned it quickly.

“Oh, yeah.” She grinned at Etta, who cradled it under her arm. “Though we really should be lessening our crimes not committing more,” she added.

“It’s just a recipe book. We can mail it back when we’re done.”

“And the other book.”

“That too.”


Kara was satisfied with that. This had been her idea after all, and she had broken the lock to let them in. Now that she was in there however she wasn’t feeling too happy about it all. Etta always seemed to fall into these things more easily than her. Always had ever since they were kids. Kara had some ideas but Etta always had the follow through.


Etta led then through the stacks and into a little room towards the end.

“Okay, this is more like it.”

She pushed into the room, dust rising up into the air and she coughed as she walked through it. It was lighter in there, the moon brighter through the windows. She doused her own ball of light and started to search through the books. Etta was worried that if she touched some of the books they would fall apart and when Kara reached past her to take one she was tempted to stop her. Her friend moved slowly though, inching the book out from between the others. She skimmed over the title and slotted it back into place before Etta could read the it herself.

“Why are these locked up again?” Kara asked, pulling out another book, cracks deep in it’s cover.

“Because,” Etta said, with a huff, “there are books in here that can completely remove the aura from someone, completely remove the magic. It’s dangerous stuff from pre-magic revolution. Don’t know why they’ve kept them all this time though.”

“We’ve been preserving history for our entire existence,” Kara said. “Maybe for reasons like this,” she muttered but Etta heard and chuckled.

“What’s that one?” she said, the silver moonlight glinting on the golden edges of a book just above her. “Stopping The Magical Curse?”

“Sounds promising,” Kara said, “well, for us at least.”

“Some of these books are insane,” Etta said, stretching up to reach the golden book. She hooked her fingers over the edges of the spine and pulled, toppling back as the huge book came off the shelf. Kara wrapped her arms around her waist but both succumbed to gravity, falling to the floor. A puff of dust flew up and they started to cough.

“Oops,” Etta said, laughing, “you okay?” She sat up and gave Kara a hand to do the same.

“Yeah, fine, is that the book?”

“I think so, right title, same author.”

“Let’s check the index,” Kara urged, pulling the book towards them over the tiles. Etta lifted open the cover with a thud, running her finger over the information on the on the first page.

“This was only written like a hundred years ago.”

“It’s been sitting in this place for fifty years.”

“But I mean, in the grand scheme of things it’s hardly anything.”

“It was a weird time, the war, the after effect of that…” Kara drifted off with a shrug. “Let’s check to see if this is the book we need, cause I want to get out of here.”

“Me too, I think the dust is starting to get to me.”

“Did you take your antihistamines?”

“Yeah but this is much more than I can take Kar,” Etta said, sniffing. “Let’s just go.”

“What if it’s not in here?” Kara said.

Etta shrugged.

“Then we’ll come back.”

Kara rolled her eyes at her, grumbling and Etta smiled.

“I don’t want to have a tail any longer than I need to.”

At that Etta smiled, looking behind her friend at the end of a long dark tail sticking out from underneath her top. It had taken them a little while to get it under control, before they could wrap it around Kara’s waist. Even now it swished back and forth over her hip.

“I said I was sorry.”

“I know, I know.”

She sighed and Etta frowned. They should’ve had someone come and reverse the spell, it would’ve been simple, quick. Easy.

Kara didn’t want anyone to know though; didn’t want anyone to see.

Didn’t want to get Etta in trouble for trying to teach a non-mage a spell.

There were stupid rules that Etta didn’t care for, and neither did Kara, she knew but her friend loved her too much to see her magic taken away from her for something as stupid as trying to dye her hair. Though how that had ended with a tail Etta didn’t know. She was as shocked as Kara when it started to grow out of body, appearing under the skirt she had been wearing at the time.

“Oh look here – neutralising individual spells,” she said, tapping the chapter list a couple of pages in.

“This really is something that should be in normal books in normal libraries.”

“Duh. The regular kind of reversal spell is” she said, snapping the book shut. “But only older mages can do it. Takes a lot of aura, and I don’t have it. I may never have it.”

“Let’s go, let’s just get home and fix this,” she said, tugging the black tail and tucking it back into her jeans. “I can’t imagine going to work on Monday with this tucked into my uniform trousers.”

They made their way out of the room, Etta lighting their way with the same ball of light spell as before, flicking it up into the air quickly so she could hold the thick book with both hands once more. They didn’t see the guard on the way back through the old library, moving quickly through the dust and darkness before making their way back out into the barren courtyard.

“Okay, where did we park the car?” Etta said, looking around. Kara frowned and started walking away from her.

“Move Etts! I want to get rid of this thing!” she called back. Etta chuckled and jogged to catch up with her.

“I don’t know Kara, I think it suits you.”


Another prompt from the 52 Week fiction image blog contest. My Writing.com portfolio has the links.